the urge...

hoho...lately...someting deep inside urging to someting dat i long for..somehow duno which was it..(-.-)
i like challenges and enthusiasm in everything i do...
but since im here..."terkurung"
duno where to start or even realize the purpose im doing
sound too bad...
anticipating wat the future lies ahead..there is no guarantees in it..everything comes wit a risk...but too bad no 'dividend' to reap with.....i do sometimes dislike wat i do, keeping to myself wat makes me sometimes be the best solutions...far from everything and start from scratch...walaa...one day perhaps hope to have another chance to live in rural areas, far for my real activities...the calmnes and serenity...hehehe,...the only frustrate me when sleeping alone in the dark....freak me until now..n perhaps the most important thing..portable toilet..need much of dat tooo>.<...promise my self to overcome it...huhu...how many years more i still enjoy in my comfort zone....hmmmm..i think it sounds more to "private zone"...wakakka
i miss cooking...but still looking for time and my mud to try new recipes..
till next time...

tot of the day...everything begins within us...but where shall i begin...hmmmmm