things i hate most..

today was sunday..as usual monster miss out for the lighting second advent as he did for the first one...but wat to do..his full of commitments,,,,
loaded ones....
then we when for a movie..there we chose for the nearest station...since i told mum n dad i when to ums...after booking our tickets..we headed for lunch...
everything was fine we had our orders done...
then came to the sad part...
yeah my food arrived...came the soup,,,
but??
his ones havent arrived yet...
we waited and stretching our neck juz to take a peep whats taking so long..
what makes me sad and dislike so much..
i was trying to help here...
but in the end...monster juz "tegur"
it makes me feel im useless for him
sometimes i dislike the way he tegur...
ya sometimes im useless
but not all time isn't it...

his time is loaded wit commitments until he doesnt now which one is which...
i dislike fishing..
but wat most terrible is..
i had bad memory wit dat...
things juz gone hancur like dats
the day after he when fishing....
so when he mention fishing
is phobia to me...

so come what may...
i cant even tell him what my troubles are...
his so loaded wit his stuff...
and he doesnt realize what i like and dislikes...
i think i have to write and blog for the rest of my life...as pouring out my feelings and looking dumb in front of everyone=(
u may see me sulking
coz deep inside..
feeling and emotions are trumbling..
only God knew i how feel...
when i write diaries..it feels like writing a letter to God..
at least someone there is listening to my worries
here I am
living in this world alone...and everyone is demanding for their time....