~~30/11/10~~

today will be my last day of goyang kakiz
anxious and nervous
so many things running through my mind
hope every thing would go smoothly as I start my day

Nevertheless, i wonder...
going through the trials all this while
i juz feel sad in the end..
n yet during my practical days
it never cross my mind
but now
it feels different..
going through a hard time on my own
i feel being alone
facing everything on my own
huhu...='(

i met a friend of mine...
we chat for hours since its been a long time we haven't meet
old memories fill our conversation
perhaps God's faith take it course..
now i understand for all this while
why i never make it before..
but then..
the same feeling is still there
it juz a slight different when ppl look at the outer than the inner side...

when im around..i may smile and everything will be fine..
but i do cry alone...thinking of the situation i need to face...
i dislike people questioning what im feeling or thinking..
Only God knew what happen..