I do...!!!!

long before after going trough this ordeal..
suddenly something reminisce me of my childhood memory..
im used to be stubborn as i am today..
even though i would seldom admit it when disagreement arises...lol^^
after this few days' hardship, i remember one of my cousin brother...
yea..among all of my "manongs"
his my favorite ..i can tell...
it is ain't about his looks..
but his tolerance and simplicity...
a little gap of age but
he was always a big brother to me..
i do miss the moments we had together during the pass...
we had grow up as a toddler...
bringing our bottle milk as we play...
hmmm..
this months...i had blown up twice...
sometimes i do realize i cant control my temper..
faking it!!! tadaa i failed again...
but yet this time i feel different...
i cant use to be the person i am before...
i was juz too frustrated...
to test my limits..
actually i would oso freak out...
i never tot twice in my action and words...
until today..after looking at the scenario....
poor "him"
i feel sory..but im helpless ...
n i admit i was too scared to touch even..

back to my cousin bro..yess he was always a dearest to me... from my childhood years...i was lucky to know him...his tolerance and patience..
anyway i always mess things up..
and he the little guardian who always fix the problem...
he do remember accompany me to school and waited for me after class...
back home safely..
and here was my little secret...i was too pig-headed to eat my meals...
n his the one to spoon feed me....

hmm..now im 23 years
old enough to think ahead...but sometimes i failed
reminiscing the memories..
make me feel at ease now...
hope his having a great time serving God..
God Bless^^

p/s: mr. bloggie,,, i do craps sometimes...but yet no one understands me...so be it..